Shouldn't be a surprise, but there are days and weeks where I'm not the least bit kinky. On the other hand, as time passes there is a slow build up and it becomes all consuming. It's difficult to shake. I'm sitting here, wearing a thong and pantyhose under my work clothes.
I think I've explained this before, but when I edge myself, I can feel contractions, there is a little bit of cum that I can feel deep inside and it is absolutely not an orgasm per-se because nothing ejaculates. I can mentally stop from "cumming," though there are little contractions. If I squeeze from the base, under my balls, I can get some of the cum out. I've already done that twice today and consumed the cum that comes out.
What's interesting too is that there is a very strong desire to consume the little bit of cum that comes out and that does not go away. Yet when I fully ejaculate and cum, the desire to consume immediately goes away.